living

Here is something I wrote to inspire me to simply live, even when I have nothing.

Listen up, because when I speak it's solid like concrete.
But soon enough it'll evaporate into thin dust and swiftly speed its way up. To tickle the toes of the God, so my place in heaven will be guaranteed.
But regardless of your beliefs I will dive and die, seep and sink into the soils to grow as a red wood tree. Thousands of years a Red wood tree. I will live old and my branches will grow for life to live on me.
But if they don't let me die of age, I will proudly timber myself. For I will be the paper poets write on, the pencils that artists dabs on, and the rich checks you all sign on. So, pay your fucking taxes and let me be a light, floating, spinning 360 degrees, so when you're lost in sea you'll find a way home.
When I die I will divide into unspeakable things; the pollen that floats, the molecules and substances you breathe. And during spring you will be allergic to me, you will inhale me, you will sneeze me, and you will dispose of me into the Southern Seattle chilling breeze and I will travel.
Point is.... I will be useful for every breath I breathe.

Jullien Avondo

My Friend, Turn Around.

You have been hiding in blankets and sheets,

You have been running from monsters and thieves.

Why don't you turn around, and stop all your crying,

Because one things for sure:

I'll be your company

To whatever fleet

And I'll be your best friend

Before you sleep.

(unfinished)

Maybe Later.

Annoyed from the nothing noise
I want to hear your voice.
I'm creating conversations
So I can say what I can say
Before it's too late.

I hope when I draw the perfect line
That will be the time
When you leave for good
Good bye for good. So good.

I always fall down in portions
Landing altogether in some sequencing pattern
I know you don't like it but that's the way I do
All the time

Just keep it together for me
While I try to explain
that I am the one who loves you best
And if someone tries to butt in this time
I'll do my best to fuck him up alright.

You're on the other side of the coin
Where I can't reach but tell you this:
I'll be a head for you thinking things through
Baby don't flip that coin.

And just so you know that if you leave
Where ever you go
I'll be following you by tow
I'll follow.

If you go against the grain
And feel something new
Please warn me baby
Before I say I love you
I do.

Just keep it together for me
While I try to explain
That I'm the one who loves you best.
And if someone tries to butt in this time
I'll do my best to fuck him up alright.

In Flumes

Your love is in flumes,
Mine is in blooms.

Console the pain,
That you wrote.
Harmful it looks,
A handful it was.

Back down to the background,
To fall in love with me.

Inside your eyes,
I see nothing of me.


I don't like giving it away, but a lot of people don't really understand what the fuck this song is about... so to those lucky ones who read this, here's my shitty explanation.

It's about that person who can't settle down with love.
It's about that person who is unable to accept love as something modest, free from selfishness or vanity.
Love is suppose to be shared, and sometimes for some people we're just not ready to take it or give it.

Where Do I Find Your Heart?

I wish I could keep you close
Be a part of all of this.
With every inch I lose
The more a feel so lost.

In every tone in this sound
That steam up in a cloud
And spirals through your ears
Is all I have for now.

And it makes me sing:
Oh my god! - Where do I find your heart?
Makes me sing
Oh my god! - Where do I find your heart?

The most costly mistake
Was when I gave in.
It too me by shock,
The way I want you now.

And in time it will be
All the ways that I see.
The futures best idea;
Your heart that melts to mine

And it makes me sing:
Oh my god! - Where do I find your heart?
Makes me sing
Oh my god! - Where do I find your heart?